Betrayal...

Its funny how you think that people know you especially those that have been around your entire life and then in the blink of an eye they turn on you.The pain that you experience,is indescribable,reliving the horrific incident still causes me to feel a stab through my heart,tears streaming down my cheeks,doubting myself,thinking that maybe I deserve all this heartache and anger.

Who would've thought that I'd move this far,just to get away from people I love the most?Away from their accusations and hatred!gosh I've always thought that any story has two sides and you should at least give both parties a chance to state their case, guess it's just me but to believe a stranger over your own flesh and blood?Can anyone ever forgive that? or even forget? The adult encourage her children to outcast their own blood,for what???for someone who's a manipulative liar?I pray every single day that I would be able to forgive and forget,I do.I so badly want to move on from this and be happy.

Still,he haunts me,doesn't want to leave me alone,pleading for forgiveness in destroying my life,isn't that too much to ask from me at this stage?Am I not allowed to be angry?to resent him sooo much that I don't ever want to see him again??I can honestly say I forgive him for lying,what I can't do right now,is forget what that lies cost me,I'm just not ready yet...I'm just sooo tired of being strong,now the one moment that I feel like I'm gonna break down,I'm alone,with no one who truly understand what I'm going through,in a strange place and it's all because of you...